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Back to previous pageI was happily married with two lovely, small daughters when I first began to struggle with worry and fear.
After living in a flat for several years, we moved into a house and our joy should have been complete when I gave birth to a son. Instead, I started feeling inadequate (no use) as a mother, and began taking tranquillisers and sleeping pills.
Then, on our holiday, I felt frightened when two gypsy women promised to put a curse on me because I refused the offer of a fortune-telling.
As my children grew older, I began to work part-time, but more and more I felt unable to cope, and ended up in hospital on more than one occasion. I could feel no emotion, unable to laugh or cry, and I became agoraphobic (a fear of open spaces) and claustrophobic (a fear of small spaces). I was so upset when, on his 11th birthday, my son tore up his card, and cried,
"All I want is my mum back, you're not my mum anymore." Then I was invited to a meeting at a local church. I went, not wanting to, but when the South African woman began to speak, I felt that God was speaking directly to me. I went forward to ask other people to pray for me, at the end of the meeting.
The following day, the dreadful pressure I had felt in my head, and all the worry and fear, had disappeared. God had set me free. I always thank Him for what He has done for me, and I hold on to the verse from the Bible,
"God has not given us a spirit of fear. But He has given us a spirit of power and love and self-control." (Source: New Christian Herald, used with permission)
Back to Fear and worry advice page
Samaritans and Befrienders offices around the world, offer a telephone advice service. Look in your phone book under 'Crisis'. You can also contact them by email at Samaritans.org in UK, and Befrienders in many countries around the world. They are completely confidential - they will never tell anyone else what you have shared with them They say, "Whatever you are going through, we will go through it with you."
You can also get help at Women Today Magazine and Men Today Online and email their support address.
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