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Will I See You Again? by John Nguyen

I miss her. School without her can be very boring. When my sophomore year began, I wanted to go to school everyday just to see her because that was the only time I got to see her. I remember the way we joked around in class, it was sort of perverted but funny. Gosh, I really miss them old days. I wish I could turn back the time when I was close to her. School is almost over. As for today, she finally talked me, well, she didn't exactly talk to me but asked me a couple of questions about class. It made me feel kind of good that she talked to me. I've been wanting to talk to her for the longest time, and finally, we started talking again. We did have a little discussion about the LEAP scores though, but it wasn't too long. Although it wasn't that long of a conversation, I still cherish them moments. I don't exactly know what I miss about her, but I do know that I miss her a lot. I miss the way she talks, the way she laughs, and most of all, I miss the way she smiles at me. I have claimed another one to be my first love, but it didn't feel the same like I felt about this girl, and plus, it only took a couple of weeks to get over her. This girl was different though, ever since the day we talked, that was the point I started loving her. Still today, I am still in love with her. I wonder if this is what they call "love", missing them everyday, every minute. This is the love that no one sees, only the heart can feel it. I need her, I really do. I remember we had this Spanish field trip, and we had to learn this dance. In order to dance, you would have to hold their hands and be close to them. I held her near me and also was holding her hand as well. As we danced, I looked at her eyes, and down to her lips, but she was looking down to the ground to see if her legs are moving the correct way. I wonder if she noticed that I was looking at her. I wanted to kiss her. I really did. Looking at them soft lips made me really want to kiss her. If only my lips and her lips touched each other. That would have been greatest thing that would ever happen to me. Too bad it never happened. She is about to move back to Philly. Well she was originally from Philly before moving to Louisiana. That was what she said a couple of months ago. I wanted to ask her if she was still moving, but I didn't know where and when I would approach her to ask. If she does move, I'm hoping that I can tell her how I really feel about her before she leaves. I want to hug her and whisper in her ears that I love her. Days passing by and still, I still didn't say anything. What should I do? I have never felt this kind of feeling towards anyone. This feeling is a good thing but also can be a bad thing as well. It makes me depressed knowing that the one you love is right in front of your eyes and you can't do anything about it. Well you can, but it's just that I don't know how I would all of a sudden go up to her and get into a serious conversation. The other night, I was going to chill with this friend of mine, and it was also her friend too. So she was also there. I really thought that, that was the perfect time to tell her the truth, but there were people around her the whole time. That plan of mines wasn't successful. I've notice that she gained a couple of pounds. Her face is very cute but her body is a little chubby now. Well she does have a body but I think if she were to put some effort in working out, she probably would be the perfect girl. Well sometimes she can really be a bitch, but when she is emotional and serious, I love her for that, I even love her for being a bitch because that's what makes it exciting and challenging. Also, she hates being called a bitch. To chase the girl of your dreams can be very exciting. When I do get with the girl, I usually would get bored of her, but I believe she is different. If she and I was to get together, we will stay together. I don't know why I am typing this but, I guess I just want to read it later on and remember how I feel about her, or maybe this feeling may never go away. If she does move away, it'll be very sad and probably will take me a long time to get over her. Well tough luck. Maybe I will run into her someday. Who knows, anything could happen....

© 2004 John Nguyen

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